Tuesday, January 26, 2010


i read the story of Noah tonite to the kiddos before bed.
they always love the part about the rainbow- God's promise.
i was reminded of the rainbow barron and i saw off our deck last week. it seems lately i have needed the reminder of a rainbow.
i am struggling with the wait for Bristol.
i am ready. but, you see, God doesn't have Bristol ready yet. and when He does, then and only then, we will get "the call".
easy to say, hard to live.
like i said...i am ready now. my heart aches for her more than i could have ever imagined without even seeing her sweet face.
so, i soaked in the rainbow.
a promise for Noah.
a reminder to me that God loves me, He is in control, and He is everywhere- like in the awesomeness of a rainbow.
just when i needed to see Him, He sent a rainbow.
...and just a little extra tidbit... i believe this was the closest i have been to the end of a rainbow. in case you were wondering- no pot of gold. we could have used that too:)


Amy said...

Courtney, I know the ache in your heart for your baby girl....I had it for Gracie....it was 22 months for us, we didn't have other children to focus on, and it was hard....but I kept praying, as I know you are doing too. I will say that the SECOND you get the call, any pain disappears. I'm always here for you.

crispy said...

I am so sorry you are still waiting. Trusting that God never shows up a day late. NEVER. He is always perfectly on time.


Team Chain said...

Hello Courtney, I share in your emotion...my family has been waiting for the referral (CHI) of our baby girl since 1-21-09, just a few days after you! This week so far has not been the best for waiting for me either. I pray that the peace of God fills us both. I'm looking forward to following your blog. I'm rooting for you!

Anonymous said...


I have been following your families' blog for a while, but have never posted a comment. After reading this post I knew I had to tell you something. We adopted through CHI and traveled on August 22, 2009, to pick up our daughter. Sadly, we were part of the huge "abandonement court hearing stoppage" last summer and we could not believe we were actually leaving for Ethiopia. But, as we boarded our plane in Washington, a rainbow appeared in the sky! I could not believe it. I am sure it was a sign of God's promise.

I know you long for your daughter so badly. Know God loves you and her. He is ALWAYS faithful! You are almost there!

Please feel free to email me if you want to chat about the HOH or need travel tips.

Mary Dearman
dmd524 at att dot net