Tuesday, August 24, 2010

Bane Bane Game

so I sit here tonite.
WHAT DO I WRITE? WHAT DO I SAY?
WHAT HAVE I DONE TO PLAY OR PAY IT FORWARD?

i have listened more closely to a little girl who is growing so fast and who means the world to me tell me about her day. smelling her hair and clean skin as i tuck her in bed. not hastily as in the past but slowly, listening intently, and wondering how in the world i blinked and she became this big.
a little girl who has more in her head than i know.
funny how when kids are home with you all the time you know everything about them, but then... they go to school and do things on their own.. and you don't know every detail of their lives and well...

I STOPPED ALL THE UNIMPORTANT-NESS of packing and cleaning a house to LISTEN to this treasure of mine...not taking one second for granted. 

she and i decided next
that she should just come sleep in my bed tonite
and oh sweetness the excitement shone in her eyes.

BECAUSE OF BANE BANE and his GAME GAME...my heart and mind are constantly searching for ways to do more,
help more,
love more, be more
to someone around me.

hummm...nicer to the checkout clerk who is having a day that i know absolutely nothing about and shouldn't judge her on it but maybe ask her how she is...
or maybe cling more to my precious family and let the pull of the world and all it asks of me to fall away...or pay for the starbucks coffee for the car next in line in the drive thru ...or the easy give a smile, an acknowledgement to someone around me because everyone likes to be recognized, appreciated...

or what about being a friend to one who knows no one
which leads me back to my talk tonite with Briley. WHAT CAN YOU DO FOR SOMEONE IN HONOR OF BANE?

LOVE THEM. 

Briley told about the new girl at school who had no one to play with on the playground today and how she went over to her and they got a game started. LOVE OTHERS. GO OUT OF YOUR WAY TO LOVE others.

think about it. do it. PLAY IT PAY IT LOVE IT forward.

3 comments:

Hattie said...

Courtney, I am sure this Bane Bane Game is doing worlds of good.
I am certainly influenced by it. What a terrific way to honor his memory.
May God bless all the family of this sweet baby.
Sincerely,
Miss Hattie

jeana said...

courtney,
i've been here tday to read. you are a lovely soul. i love you and your dear sweet family. i must have the kids to stay a night at the farm soon. please let me know.
i am in on the "game" and my heart is full....
love,
auntjeana

Love Being a Nonny said...

I am in on the Bane Bane game
game.....